𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐖𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮.

It’s not just not being able to sleep in or no more fly by the seat of your pants activities and vacations. No more going about your day on “your schedule.”

There are things that childbirth classes, and books will never teach you. 

The physical wounds of child bearing will often heal, but becoming a mother will leave you with an emotional wound so raw that you will forever be vulnerable. 

You will never again see the news without asking, “What if that had been 𝑴𝒀 child?” Every horrific story you see on the news. Things you don’t think imaginable will haunt you. 

When pictures of starving children or missing children posters come up, it will have you wondering if anything could be worse than watching your child suffer. 

Becoming a mother brings out sides of you that you never knew existed. There will be moments when you become a roaring bear protecting her cub. That hearing, “𝑴𝒐𝒎!” In an urgent scream, will cause you to drop a dinner dish or run out the door without a moments hesitation. 

You will pray every prayer, warfare prayers, cover them in scripture, fast, make sure they are wearing coats on cold days, teaching them to brush their teeth, comb their hair and say their prayers. You will feel like you have done everything you are supposed to do, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒅 𝒈𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒅𝒆𝒄𝒊𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒂𝒔 𝒂 𝑴𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓.

As a pregnant woman, you can eventually shed the pounds of pregnancy, but you will never feel the same about yourself. 

A cesarean scar or shiny stretch marks will become badges of honor. 

How you see your husband will change. What you saw in him that made him attractive to you will change.

You start to learn how to understand how much more you can love a man who is careful to cradle your baby as to protect them from the world, teaching them how to play a guitar, to drop what they are doing to play tonka trucks or tea party. A man who will answer all the hard questions about life, religion, and show his son what integrity means and show his daughter what loyalty and faithfulness look like. 

You will fall in love with him all over again for reasons you would have never dreamed. You will see attractive and romantic as something completely different. 

Any time you are away, you will think of your baby’s sweet smell. That little spot on the back of their neck. You will have to use every ounce of discipline you have to keep from running home, just to make sure your baby is all right. 

You will see the excitement of seeing your child learn to walk, talk, go to their first day of school, ride a bike for the first time, and watching them leave for the first time without you while your heart is doing everything it can not to follow them. All of their firsts, become your firsts. 

You will want to lock in a jar the deep belly laugh of your child who is laughing for the first time. You will ask God to please never let you forget it.

Your life will be of less value than compared to your child. You will give up yourself in a moment to save them.  You will beg God for many more years, not for your dreams and goals, but to watch them accomplish theirs. 

You will know joy that is so real it actually hurts. You will pray God forever protects them, because losing a child is like losing a part of your soul. It’s like losing your breath and never being able to catch it again. Your insides are in a forever panic attack. There are no words anyone can say to make you feel better. Just the mention of their name will cause you to pause and hold back tears. You will be in a state of stock everyday of your life. Everything in life will somehow be a reflection of them. People who were once around to hold your hand, will start to fade off and you will feel like you are standing in the middle of a busy highway alone while everyone else is zooming by.

It will be a blessing and the most extreme pain you will ever feel physically and emotionally.  

𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒚. You will be thankful for every moment you got to have them in your life.  You’ll never regret being a mother. You will hold onto every moment like it is was treasure from heaven. You will thank God he let you know this kind of love.

𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝑴𝒂𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒖𝒑 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒑𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕.

-𝐿𝑢𝑘𝑒 2:19